Jaded.

It’s been hard to write lately because I have been feeling everything and nothing at all, trying to figure out how to walk after you let me fall. Kind of in a state of confusion, never really thought I was scared of change until I saw the change in the way you looked at me, the change in your touch, the change in the way we slept together, the change in the little things that meant so much. Baby are we tired or is this all my delusion? Just want to find a solution….what’s happening? Thought we had it all under control but suddenly we feel so isolated, feels like our love has faded, feels like the vibe is jaded. Doesn’t feel like we weathered this storm together, guess we couldn’t make it through whatever. The winds and bad times made us more separate than ever. Funny cause I thought falling apart would make us realize how much we needed to fall back together, instead it left me feeling like there’s no such thing as forever. How is it that even when you hold me close things feel empty and I miss you more than ever ?